Journal

Place to store like some journal writings. Names of people I know are changed for privacy

I moved this weekend - 5/11/2025

so this weekend i moved to my first (solo) apartment! I had family and friends help me move and omg I could have not done it without them. firstly, I moved to a 3rd story apartment with no elevator, and it would have been impossible to move one my own! Secondly, literally some of my furniture is just too big for me to lift on my own. We had to take some of the furniture apart too, and at one point we literally had to hoise up a couch with rope because it wouldnt fit up the stairs to my apartment. My friends also helped reassemble furniture that we took apart for the move. My dad even came out as well to help. It just feels so nice to have so many caring people in my life :)! I was really worried with this new move I would feel lonely, but if any thing i feel a sense of apprication for my life. Im really grateful for the wonderful people im surrounded by, the opportunities that my family and friends support me with, and just moving was a really validating way of realizing it.

heres a list of things i am grateful for:

• none of my things broke durring the move
• my family and friends all being super supportive and helpful during the move
• Zelda my cat has not freaked out and hid this time
• last time i moved she hid in my house and we could not find her LOL
• My parents came again the next day to help me:
• unpack and move furniture to the right rooms
• Buy things for my house
• just mentally & physically help me get things done. I was so overwhelmed by the amount of boxes needed to be unpacked
• Myself for packing things slowly, getting internet before i moved, and scheduling/cordnating people to help me move

It was a very exhausting day, but it feels good to be able to accomplish so much, and be exhausted! Sometimes i feel like with my job, i dont really get a physical fatigue. Maybe i need to find a hobby that give me that physical fatigue. I used to do weight lifting for that, but honestly I kinda have come to dread it. I enjoy working out when its with friend, but going to a gym solo style is just feels uneasy tbh. I kinda wanna either find a way to move my body that doesnt make me feel socially uneasy, or maybe find a group workout thing to do? Or maybe start like painting while standing again.

but ya, now i finally have internet again in my new house. Thank god because my ass is chronically online, plus i need internet as I do work from home for my job.

feeling grateful & joyful

-3maqi

My friend is moving to the UK - 5/1/2025

My friend is moving to the UK for a job and its a bit tough ngl. She is one of my closest friends. Ive known her since I was in grade school. She's leaving today, and it doesnt feel real. i keep thinking like oh, ill see her tomorrow, no worries. The reality is that she is going to be across the world. The worst thing is I havent cried. Im not sure why to be honest. Maybe its because I already cried when a different friend left to switzerland, and it got all mixed up with those emotions.
Regardless, its gonna be strange. She has been such a huge part of my life, to have her go is, life changing.

Its not the first time someone has left me, but I just feel a bit empty now. Maybe ive been working on this site to destract me from it all.

ya. thanks for reading

-3maqi